Love and anxiety. Terrible chemistry.

I've found the girl I have a true feeling for. Through ups and downs it's finally settle between me and her, but nothing can ever be perfect in my mind with all the fucking anxiety that haunts me about the possibility's of past events occurring again and bringing me to my demise again. I love her. I can't say it enough. I truly do.. Is it bad? Is it good? I find the feeling intoxicating. Fuck...